Our minds are wonderful tools. Remembering to use our minds wisely- especially when we don’t feel great- can be a challenge. Using our minds wisely means to make good choices with where we choose to focus our thoughts and attention. It’s easy to get sucked into negativity.
But remember that we always have the power to make good choices with our minds. We can always choose to change our focus from something negative to positive
Yesterday I was at the gym. I had one half hour to get in some exercise before I had to go in to work. So I just got on an elliptical machine and started going… Continue reading
All spring and summer I found myself doing a lot of emotional eating. Thankfully I didn’t gain a lot of weight, but I ate late almost every night and too heavily and then went to bed feeling full and disgusted. I would find I still felt bloated and gross the next morning.
I am now sporting a mini muffin top, you know that roll of fat around the tummy area? Yes it’s lovely. Well, there is diabetes in my family, and being a nurse, I know that belly fat is a huge factor in developing type II diabetes. So this emotional eating habit is something I really wanted to work on… Continue reading
Yesterday I got the very good news that my lump is benign. So very grateful. Thank you Lord and thank you to everyone who sent a prayer or good wish.
The procedure I had done is called a core needle biopsy. I did not have a good experience. Something went wrong and the doctor hit an area with no numbing medicine. The machine jumped and hit a nerve or something. I bled a lot and it was very painful. My boob is still bruised and sore.
It just so happens that 2 other girls that I work with also had breast biopsies last week. One of them- her name is Sue- a very sweet girl who I like a lot- found out she has invasive breast cancer. She is going to Sloane Kettering today with her husband.
So very sad for her news. She is around my age and has 2 young adult children. She looked so fragile and scared to me at work yesterday. I know she is trying to be brave for her family.
I just can’t believe how pervasive breast cancer is in our society today. God bless all the brave women who have to fight this battle.
I wish you peace,
I started keeping a diary at age 10. I got my first one as a Christmas present- it was a One Year Diary- with a fancy maroon cover and gold writing. It came with a tiny little lock and key.
I loved it and wrote in it faithfully almost every day. When I finished that diary the following December, there was a shiny new one wrapped under the tree.
Once I outgrew the little lock and key variety, i just started journaling in notebooks. Over the years I filled up tons of them.
Lately I feel compelled to get rid of junk and clutter that’s just laying. I found myself going thorough the back of my closet and skimming through years and years of dusty old journals. I truly don’t want to hold onto my sad story any longer. I made it a point to scan through every notebook before I put it in the trash pile. But interestingly, I am finding very little that I think is worth keeping… Continue reading
Buddy in the waiting room at the vets. Scared to death.
My dog and I have matching lumps.
I ended up having 2 days off this week out of the blue. I have a bunch of appointments I’d been putting off, like the dog’s yearly check up at the vet, my mammogram, and other stuff. So I booked them all over these 2 days.
When I took Buddy for his yearly checkup earlier this week, I had the vet examine a pretty large lump under his right arm. It’s concerning because I notice he limps a little once in awhile and yelps a little when he jumps out of the back of the car. She said it’s either arthritis or it could be from the lump. And she took a biopsy of it. Continue reading
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This is definitely a new phase of life and I’m not comfortable with it yet. We got my daughter off to school last Saturday and it was a good day. She’s doing quite well, from what I can gather, thank You Lord. It just felt surreal for her to be separating from us in such a permanent fashion. I cried for about a good solid hour on the ride home. My heart hurt.
So it’s definitely an adjustment having one less person in the house. It’s neither good nor bad, but it is different. And I miss her.
I ran into a coworker at Target who just got her son off to school and she said “My life is over.” I’m real glad I don’t feel that way. But I can empathize with her. She is divorced from a guy who was a jerk and a cheater. Although my marriage is far from perfect, we’ve made a lot o progress since our bad years.
Monday I worked a full day. I found myself feeling highly sensitized. No doubt because I was still reeling from the weekend and just reality and life seemed different with my daughter gone. Plus I was still anxious about her as she hadn’t checked in with us that much. Wondering is the ok, is she dealing ok, etc etc. Continue reading
My eldest child is leaving for college in 3 days.. Need to do something about how I’m feeling inside. I decided just this minute to do an exercise of Inquiry from Byron Katie, Loving What Is:
I’m afraid that my daughter won’t be able to handle herself emotionally at college. So I will do “The Work” on this statement.
My daughter won’t be able to handle herself emotionally at college.
1. Is it true?
2. Can you absolutely know that it’s true that your daughter won’t be able to handle herself at college?
I needed to get still and sit with this for a good few minutes. Ok.. No. Continue reading