Watching Thoughts as a Daily Practice

I’ve been enjoying the tremendous benefits of mindfulness since I first started meditating in summer 2014. We talk about it here and there on the blog and I wanted to bring it up again today, because I really think it helps so much with life!

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First of all, if you are reading this and you suffer from anxiety, you should give meditation a try. It is proven by solid scientific research to alleviate anxiety and depression- in addition to tons of other benefits. Honestly the only benefit I ever cared about was alleviating my anxiety 🙂

I have decades of fearful reactions and negative thought patterns to undo, so I never run out of things to work on! Learning to dis-identify from all these old thoughts is what I am doing in my life every day! And sitting in meditation for a few minutes slows you down and helps you get in touch with your real self, so that you can start to do this:) Continue reading

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Unplanned Day Off Throws Me Into Anxious Despair

Yesterday was a setback. I had low level, background restlessness all morning. It was an unplanned day off from work. There were no OR cases and since I work to recover patients after anesthesia, I had no patients. I could have gone in to work and just sat there all day. But I decided to use some personal time and take the day off.

You know something, just typing it out now and also someone asked on Facebook when I posted about it that was the reason I was off. Something as simple as that. It was an unplanned day off from work.

One thing about me, I don’t do well with long stretches off from work. You know, unplanned free time. I get restless and antsy and the weather was totally uncooperative. It was cold, windy and raining hard. I couldn’t even take Buddy for a walk- and we go out just about every weather condition. Heavy wind and rain I just can’t do. Continue reading

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Do You Take Medication for Anxiety?

Question: Jill, I was curious if you don’t mind my asking. Do you take any medications? I do not but sometimes I wonder if it would help. I did take Paxil 17 years ago & I would say that is when I gained a lot of ground. Medication or not….that is the question. lol… I’d love your thoughts.

Answer: Yes I do. But only on an as needed basis. A 30 day supply of of Klonopin lasts me 6 months or more. Taking medication for anxiety is highly personal- meaning, there is no “one size fits all” solution. I know that a lot of doctors prescribe antidepressants (SSRI’s) for long term chronic anxiety. I have taken Prozac and then Celexa in the past. I am not currently taking an antidepressant.

Despite going through a lot of family and personal drama last summer, I am in a surprisingly good space, anxiety- wise. I attribute that to my consistency in sitting down to meditate for 6 minutes every morning, going to the gym a few times a week for exercise, and showing up to work every day (where I interact with my friends, coworkers and patients). I also make sure to get out and socialize at least once every month or two. Continue reading

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Eckhart Tolle on How to Stop Suffering from Anxiety

I listened to a bunch of Eckhart Tolle videos on YouTube yesterday. Specifically in regard to how to stop suffering from anxiety. Here is one about a man who was in a constant state of fear and anxiety.

The man’s parents were Holocaust survivors and passed down their fears to him. Eckhart explains what he can do to help stop the suffering:

This video is wonderful. So much of what he says is worthy of contemplation. I find that the more I listen to Eckhart Tolle the better I understand how to apply these concepts in my daily life. I use Eckhart’s teachings to help me understand and transmute the negative things in my life (like fear and anxiety) into peace. Here are some of my notes- direct quotes from Eckhart– on this and other videos I watched:

The suffering self isn’t ultimately real. It is possible to live free of suffering.

Thought cannot tolerate the state of presence. It wants to control it by understanding what it all means.

You can watch a thought arising in your mind.

You can observe the inner world the world of emotions and thought.

There’s no need to follow every thought.

You are bigger than your thoughts. You don’t have to be dominated by your thoughts.

They can obscure the aliveness of your life.

The human condition is to be lost in thought. Most humans are lost in it.

Most of human pain is psychologically created.

Suffering implies a story. A me that is unhappy. An unhappy story that is its identity.

You cannot leave the space of now.

Inner transformation is not really about finding lots of answers to your questions, but finding a new relationship to thought.

The basic condition of the egoic self is a very deep seated state of lack. 

In the office one day apparently A New Earth arrived in a package and somebody had put it through a shredder and returned it to the office…(laughing) So this person was not ready.

You cannot force it on people.

All a spiritual teaching does is it saves time.

In the absence of a spiritual teacher you still have your suffering. Everybody has that. That’s the main teaching and the main teacher.

Your spiritual teaching is your suffering. And eventually it will wake you up. Eventually.

Instead of going through life and reacting to the content, the content is allowed to be. And then you’re aware of the Now itself beyond the phenomena that arise in it. That is the miracle of transformation of consciousness.

You become aware of an undercurrent of stillness in which everything happens. You sense it. You realize that you ARE it.

And then it’s so easy. Once you realize you are that deep undercurrent of stillness, the world is no longer problematic.

Its simply the story of me. But you don’t get your identity from it anymore. What’s left are simply photo albums in the head.

You’re no longer in a reactive relationship to those events that took place in the past and are remembered in field of now. You’re not seeking yourself in reactions to those stories. Its simply things that happened in the past. Its not me. You don’t need it anymore for your identity.

When you no longer look for yourself in the future, it’s no longer threatening.

Notes to take away:

The discomfort you feel is created in your mind.

Turn towards the feeling to dissolve it.

Know that the majority of thoughts are useless and are only there to pull you in.

Watch the thought but don’t let it pull you in and take you over.

The “Story of Me” is the suffering.

The goal is to get rid of the egoic self.

Many people go through their life and function with a level of fear and anxiety within. Eckhart Tolle shows how, through acceptance of what is, and by not being taken over by thought, you can go beyond the fear, stop this needless suffering and find inner peace.

Make your dream a happy one 🙂
Jill G.

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Anxiety and Waiting- Why Does This Freak Me Out?

Waiting in lines- at the post office, the grocery store, to go to communion, for the traffic light to change. Anxiety and waiting is one of the most common and frightening experiences for anxiety sufferers. Today we’ll look at anxiety and waiting, both why it freaks us out, and what we can do about it.anxiety and waiting

I used to absolutely dread Continue reading

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On Choosing Kindness & Why I Had To Pick Up The Dog Poop

Today we’re talking about choosing kindness & doing the right thing, even when it doesn’t necessarily get noticed. And how by doing this, it puts YOU in a better mood, a higher vibrational field (where negativity doesn’t affect you), and can be a bright spot in your day.

I have a 9 year old German Shepard named Buddy who loves to go for walks.

This morning I took Buddy for a walk at a nearby elementary school, where he can run off leash. It’s a few miles from the house so we have to drive there.  I parked the car and let him out so he could go do his business, while I got the car locked. He immediately ran over to the school and made a poop.

I went over to pick it up, but for whatever reason I couldn’t find it. Buddy was all excited for his walk, jumping up and down and crying and carrying on. Since the dirty deed was done was right by the car and no one comes to the school yard this early, I figured we could go for our walk and I’d look later. Continue reading

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Learning How to Be Patient With the Anxiety Recovery Process

Anxiety tests every limit you have. If you suffer from panic attacks or severe social anxiety or agoraphobia, you know you’ve been to hell and back. Probably many many times. Learning how to be patient with the anxiety recovery process when you’re not seeing the results you want, or not seeing them as quickly as you’d like, is super important.anxiety recovery patience

It’s emotionally draining to be anxious and have to go out there where you know you will be potentially anxious in order to NOT be anxious. It’s really really hard… Continue reading

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How to Consciously Deal with a Depressed, Angry Person

This post is going to show you how to consciously deal with an angry person. The question here is about an angry, depressed husband. But you can substitute anyone here for husband- coworker, friend, mother, sister, neighbor, etc.

Jade said:  Making strides…hubby has been depressed and grumpy at me for 3 days.

His life is changing big time right now.

Proud to say that I have not reacted unlovingly or with my ego. Once I had to walk away and seek solitude though. But I soothed myself and it is starting to work. Any advice?

Jill said: Good girl Jade! I know and have lived your situation. Continue reading

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