Today’s guest post is from Tyler, age 18. This is his brilliant take on Panic Attacks. Teenager viewpoints are amazingly insightful. Too, what a wonderful attitude Tyler has about his agoraphobia and panic attacks. He has me completely inspired. Read on..
For 2 years I have been scared of you, and for good reason. I remember when we first met, I had just came home from the movies and you played tricks on my mind to make me think I was dying or something was seriously wrong. I fell for it, you’re good at that.
Then for the following months you continued to bully me. Every day you would show up unexpected to scare me. You made my heart race so fast I couldn’t count the beats. You made me feel like I couldn’t breathe and I would pass out. You made my vision blurry and hearing seem dull while giving me feelings as though I were in a dream or not in my own body. Pretty good tricks.
Eventually you started scaring me up so bad I didn’t want to leave the house because you might find me and do those things again. You blamed everything else for what you were doing. You told me it was because the world was too dangerous, or my parents were the only people who could make you go away, or that I was really sick and that’s why this was happening.
When are you going to grow up? Seriously. I finally see you for who you are now. You’re nothing but an attention starved child. But still, what you’ve done to me has left a mark that can’t be easily wiped off.
But I’ve noticed something else about you. Every time you’ve come to me, you lied about what would happen. When my heart raced you told me I would die, but I’m still here.
When you said I would pass out, I never did. When my senses were altered and my thoughts were uncomfortable, you told me I was sick or going crazy or about to die. Well, I’m not.
I just want you to know that I’m doing fine, despite all the lies you told me. I am alive, I proved you wrong every single time. It’s almost funny to think how I actually believed you for 2 long years. I wouldn’t continue to trust a friend if they lied to me as much as you have for this long, so why would I continue to trust you?
What I’m trying to say is, even though we’ve gotten pretty close over the years, I don’t think this will work out.. you and me. You know all of my weaknesses, but if you haven’t noticed, I know yours too. And I plan to take advantage of every weakness you have, just like you have done to me. Pay back’s a bitch huh?
My name’s Tyler. I started having panic attacks in Jan. of 2008. By the following year it turned into agoraphobia. Other than that, I’m doin’ pretty good haha. This “disorder” has helped me value a lot of things I otherwise might have spend years overlooking.
Thank you Tyler, for sharing your experience of being a teenager with panic attacks. You have tremendous fortitude and I dare say, panic attacks and agoraphobia don’t stand a change with your insight and take charge attitude. 🙂
I wish you peace,
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