Enjoying Spring- and Spring Cleaning My Mind :)

What a nice spring we are having. I just came in from taking Buddy around the block and down to the little lake we have near our house. All the little buds and leaves are coming out. The forsythia are just past their prime, as well as the daffodils and early spring flowers. And the birds are all around singing and happy. The grass is really green, it’s been raining a lot.

all healing is essentially the release from fear

Walking, I felt such gratitude for this mild afternoon. I’d woken up with some anxiety, but worked on getting my head straightened out.

I listened to some spiritual things that really brought me a lot of comfort today. There was a prayer I read from A Course in Miracles that I just loved. I shared it on Facebook earlier. Here it is:

I must have decided wrongly,
because I am not at peace.
I made the decision myself,
but I can also decide otherwise.
I want to decide otherwise,
because I want to be at peace.
I do not feel guilty, because the Holy Spirit
will undo all the consequences
of my wrong decision if I will let Him.
I choose to let Him, by allowing Him
to decide for God for me.

And I found this wonderful video about healing from morning anxiety:

Just because I woke up and felt nervous, doesn’t undo all the great strides I’ve made. I know that I lived with an anxious mind for years and didn’t know how to help myself, other than medicating away all the feelings. So that these old thought patterns come back and rise up doesn’t mean anything.

I don’t have to take my mind so seriously.

I have my little morning meditation routine now that I just love. I sit for at least 6 minutes in silent meditation when I get up every morning.

This is such a great way to establish a connection to my sense perceptions and to the breath. This is how I anchor myself in the present moment. Now I may lose the present moment a thousand times throughout the day, but I can always come back to the breath. I just have to remember this.

Another thing I remembered today was that when I feel fear today, to welcome it. To not resist it. Rather, I can remember to just observe that it is there and breathe. I had a zing of anxiety in the few minutes before my gym class started this morning. I often get triggered with anxiety before a class starts, something about the waiting with nothing to do…

Anyhow, I felt the fear as a wave, I felt it rise up and the thought came for a split second to leave the class immediately. But I didn’t listen in. I stood my ground and of course the fear died down. It was a phantom and nothing more.

Once the class started I remembered the little prayer from this morning. And I remembered how we are all connected. We are all little parts of a big whole. And the reason there is so much fear and unease is that we forget we are connected. We feel fragmented (and anxious people feel it acutely), but we are all little ripples on a big ocean of humanity. We are all one. I know that sounds out there, but it’s the truth.

There is something so comforting when I remember I am a part of everything and not separate. I have forgotten through years of wrong thinking because of anxiety.

And being out and connected to nature always helps me feel better too. This morning it was so dreary and raining. But it wasn’t cold thankfully, so I took Buddy for a walk and it was really nice. How lucky I am to have a day off in the middle of the work week. It felt almost holy it was that nice!

So that’s it. A nice little day that started out not so great, but that turned around nicely. And feeling gratitude for reconnecting to the universe. Going around doing my things, little chores and walks and whatnot.

Thank you Lord, for showing me how beautiful life can be- even if it is just another day in the middle of the week. Even if I have fear and old feelings, thank you for showing me such wonderful tools to make the fear go away.

Hoping this finds you well!

Jill G.

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6 Responses to Enjoying Spring- and Spring Cleaning My Mind :)

  1. Maz says:

    This is a wonderful uplifting blog. Thank you jilly for spending the time writing this

    Luv maz x

  2. Kathleen F. says:

    Hi Jill, I agree with Maz- this is such a wonderful respite and I really appreciate your posting. Thank you for all you do and God bless you.

    • JillG says:

      Thank you Kathleen, I appreciate your comment. God bless you too 🙂

      • Kathleen M says:

        Your’re amazing Jill! You always seem to find another way to cope. Thank you so much for continuing to write these posts.
        Also, thank you so much for the things you’ve written about regarding thyroid issues. I’ve learned so much and realized sometimes what aches me has to do with my Hashimoto’s, which I never would have learned unless you posted. Doctor’s do not tell you anything sometimes, except for the diagnoses and then you’re left to find everything on your own. Knowledge is power and sometimes knowing a point of origin, helps. It took me a long time to, to realize how I’ve been numbing my body to deal with stress.
        I don’t know if you know of the website “Calm and Courageous,” but I recently read an article that described my aniexty to a t. I’m going to include it here.
        (However I don’t want to add new symptoms to your life, so if you don’t read it that’s ok. You’re doing so well I don’t want to mess you up. I know sometimes I read about a new symptom, and then I get nervous that I have it.) This is the article in case you do want to read it.
        I was glad to know this is just a symptom and doesn’t have to be forever.

        • JillG says:

          Thanks for the kind words Kathleen. Yes, there are many ways to cope with anxiety. All are based on acceptance and nonresisitance. Mindset is everything too, so always try to throw a dose of optimism and gratitude. It really helps.
          Glad to hear you’re educating yourself about the thyroid and Hashimoto’s. Knowledge is power, and we do have to figure out a lot of this stuff on our own. At least, that was the case with me. The thyroid regulates so much, way more than most of us realize. And it can certainly add a wide and colorful variety of symptoms. Personally I experience palpitations, joint aches and pain, and chronic constipation. I had a lot of shoulder aches yesterday. Getting out and walking and going to the gym despite it helped. It always helps to keep moving. And drinking lots of water too.

          We also recently discussed anti-inflammatory aids. I have been using and really like Tart Cherry Juice. It helped me immensely with a recent severe hip pain flare up. Here is a link to Amazon to the brand that I use that was recommended to me. I don’t have to take it every day now, only a few times a week. That and I also take naproxen occasionally for the aches and pains. And taking 500mg daily of Magnesium helps me to stay regular.

          As for depersonalization, I used to suffer from that. Yes it is just another bizarre anxiety symptom. I haven’t had it in forever thank God, but it is scary as all hell when it is happening. Calm acceptance helps a lot with that. Also not overdrinking alcohol, avoiding marijuana, prayer, meditation, and getting sunshine.

          Wishing you well going forward and thank you again for the comment and article!

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