2 Panic Attacks in 2 Days…

I’ve had 2 panic attacks in the last 2 days. Nothing gut-wrenching. Both happened at work. I didn’t fall to pieces afterwards. That is progress.

But it’s bugging me. It did get me wondering what is going on with me lately. I know when anxiety and panic kick up, it’s a good time to brainstorm my coping skills and triggers and just where I am in general.

I am doing this just off the cuff here. Ok, let’s dig into this…

Am I premenstrual?

No- that is always a big trigger.

How’s the diet?

Amazingly good for the last 5 days or so. (I’ve been inhaling food like an animal all fall, my way of dealing with the stress of getting my daughter on track with her college applications). I have been mindful of keeping away from gluten and bulking up on protein and salads. Feeling good in that area.

Have I been moving/exercising?

Not as much as usual. We are down one nurse in my department, so I have been working every day. That is good, but I can’t get to the gym. I just haven’t had the time.

How’s the marriage?

Well that’s always a challenge. My husband’s bipolar has kicked up for him a few times recently. That always makes it rough. We haven’t been intimate in about 2 months. Lack of intimacy does make me feel a bit disconnected, but I can roll with it pretty well usually. That may be a factor…

How are my connections to people in general?

I feel close to a girl at work. We have had lunch and work together really well. I have gone out with different groups of freinds at work on 2 separate occasions recently. Very happy to feel as if I fit in. I am going to another get together this Friday at another friend’s house.

So the work end is great. I do feel distance from my sister. She travels a lot for her work and when she is home, she is always with her partner. Our phone calls are less than they used to be, which makes me kind of sad.

What else?

Well this may sound nutty but it IS a full moon. I do think that affects people. whenever it is a full moon, for example in the ER where i work, it gets absolutely crazy with sick people. That may be a factor.

What else?

I miss my mom. Haven’t seen her in months because of being busy…

What else?

I feel pressure because it is the Christmas season- well, in the stores anyways. I don’t spend a lot, but I like to get little things, and have not had the time to get out. This past weekend I planned to shop and start tackling my list, but I got called in to work, so that was a bust. I feel a little stress from that.

What else?

A lot of stuff coming up this week. 3 different appointments for the kids for things, also parent teacher conferences. Hard to juggle all that with working full time hours.

What else?

Hmm. Not sure. I think that about covers it. As someone who is highly susceptible to sensitization, when a few things are off kilter, that can certainly set me up for having panic attacks.

I did notice that when I had the one yesterday, I regressed in the moment. I forgot that I am the one in charge and I can still function. In the moment, I withdrew and sort of gave into the fear feelings. I was supposed to give report to the OR nurse on a patient while I was recovering another patient.

I knew the patient from head to toe, had a complete history, knew all the details, the labs, etc.

Something about the people in the room- it felt like there were too many people just hanging around.  I could tell it was going to happen. That is usually my cue to do the Face, Accept, Float, and Let Time Pass. But I forgot. 🙁

When the nurse came over for report, that’s when it hit. I gave a really shortened version of what I wanted to say. I walked back over to my sleeping patient, and kind of blurted out the rest of the report in pieces. It was awkward.

It wasn’t a big deal. But it kind of was. To me. I don’t like it when I give in to anxiety and let it overtake me.

Note to self: You are a wonderful, strong child of God. You are FINE. It’s not a big deal.

Gonna dust myself off and get back in the game. I meant to go over some of my old posts, as this always helps remind me how far I’ve come, but last night I was just too tired.

Sending a prayer to all those in need of support today- myself included. I am thankful to be able to go the gym this morning. I am going to focus on feeling good today. When I go to work later today, I will be good.

I wish you peace,

Jill G.

Update: I am much better now. I recommend & use the 60 Second Panic Solution. Please if you are suffering, get started now & reclaim your life from fear and anxiety! Click here to learn more.

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6 Responses to 2 Panic Attacks in 2 Days…

  1. Hi Jill. I love the way you write. Sometimes there is no why with anxiety but I know from you article that you know about Claire Weeks foundation for overcoming anxiety which is face, accept, float and let time pass. What good advice. I noticed that at least twice you said you we too busy, to visit your mum and to exercise. You know it not good to be this busy. Make time for yourself, do some relaxation and there are many ways of being intimate, cuddling, kissing, just having a you and him time, share a meal, share a bath, watch a movie together, you get my drift.
    Being loved and giving love is so important. Just like you I work in a medical environment and it can be demanding as we often give all our love to the vulnerable people we look after. I too am having to deal with anxiety which has returned after many years of remission, so I know how much it means to be encouraged. You have a busy life which seems full, so except anxiety as the curse it is and don’t give it any more attention than it deserves. Then please God it will subside of its own accord. Don’t know about a full moon but unless you’re looking for blood (vampire) you should be ok. Well done on a great article.

    • JillG says:

      Ha ha Michael 🙂

      Thank you for the kind words, suggestions and encouragement. Yes I am a huge fan of the late Dr. Claire Weekes. Her work is a godsend for anxious people.

      You’re right I am burning the candle at both ends recently, but sometimes external events just pile up.

      I am feeling better now that I took the time to stop and examine it, and am making time for listening to my CDs and reading books that help me. I hope you are feeling supported and encouraged yourself with your recent resurgence. Take care!

  2. Terra says:

    Thanks for the post, I really needed this today. My life has been a little hectic too. It is nice to hear how others deal with life pressures.
    It reminds me that I need to workout as well. It amazes me what a difference that can make:)
    God Bless you!

  3. Tonya says:

    Hey Jill! Good to hear from you. Glad your doing well. Been having lots of anxiety lately. Had to take off work for a small surgery, so feeling guilty about being off. Had some small panic attacks I stopped but it has been really getting me down. I am pretending I am fine and putting on a front. We had tickets to see a Broadway musical and went tonight and anxiety voices in my head brought on a panic attack, I sat through it but boy did it suck. Voices: Tonya, you are really sick, you are never going to be better, you better schedule a visit to the psych doctor tomorrow and get started on medications. I tried not to listen to them and tell myself, this too shall pass, just having a set back. But I am so discouraged with this shit! How can I pretend it doesn’t matter and I don’t care when I do! I am sick of feeling like shit and not being able to go anywhere without this fucking anxiety! I am so fed up. I pray, I exercise, I eat right, I do the self talks and still have this sick nervous feeling in the pit of my stomach all the time. Some days are good, they are really good, but when they are bad, they are really bad! I really don’t have anyone to talk to about all this. My husband can look at me and tell I’m not feeling well, but all this fucking pretending is driving me crazy. How do I not care about it. Why the fucking set backs, what’s their point? Sorry for the words, I’m so frustrated!! I only curse when I am really really angry, and I am. There is a psych doctor who is supposed to be really good but doesn’t take insurance and is self pay $290 for the 1st visit and I am actually considering going to see her, but the voices in my head say don’t go, she will just mess you up worse and I say how can it get any worse? Any advice!!! I just want answers.

  4. Sylvia B says:

    Dear Jill,

    It sounds like you might be overwhelmed by stress. Stress is a normal physical response to events that make you feel threatened or upset your balance in some way. When you sense danger—whether it’s real or imagined—the body’s defenses kick into high gear in a rapid, automatic process known as the fight-or-flight-or-freeze reaction, aka the stress response.

    The stress response is the body’s way of protecting you. When working properly, it helps you stay focused, energetic, and alert. In emergency situations, stress can save your life—giving you extra strength to defend yourself, for example, or spurring you to slam on the brakes to avoid an accident.

    The stress response also helps you rise to meet challenges. Stress is what keeps you on your toes during a presentation at work, sharpens your concentration when you’re attempting to win at anything, or drives you to study for an exam when you’d rather be doing something much more fun. 😀

    But beyond a certain point, stress stops being helpful and starts causing major damage to your health, your mood, your productivity, your relationships, and of course your quality of life suffers.

    The way our body responds to stress: When you perceive a threat, your nervous system responds by releasing a flood of stress hormones, including adrenaline and cortisol. These hormones rouse the body for emergency action. And of course this makes us feel horrible!

    Our hearts pounds faster, muscles tighten, blood pressure goes up, we start breathing faster , and our senses become sharper. These physical changes increase our strength and stamina, speed our reaction time, and enhance our focus, this prepares us to either fight or flee from the danger at hand.

    Remember it’s important to either avoid, alter, adapt, or accept.

    Avoid unnecessary stress whenever possible. Of course not all stress can be avoided, but by learning how to say no, distinguishing between “should’s” and “musts” on our to-do list, and steering clear of people or situations that stress you out, we can eliminate many daily stressors.

    Alter the situation. If we can’t avoid a stressful situation, we need to try to alter it. Become more assertive and deal with problems head on. Instead of bottling up our feelings and increasing our stress, kindly let others know about your concerns. Or try a compromise and try meeting others halfway.

    Adapt to whatever is causing the stress. When you can’t change the stressful situation, try changing yourself. Reframe problems or focus on the positive and happy things in your life. If a task at work has you stressed, focus on the aspects of your job you do enjoy. And always look at the big picture: is this really something worth getting upset about?

    Accept the things you can’t change. There will always be stressors in our lives that we can’t do anything about. Learn to accept the inevitable rather than fight against a situation, which always makes it more stressful. Look for the upside in a situation, even the most stressful circumstances can be a learning opportunity for personal growth. Learn to accept that no one, including me, you, or any of us is ever perfect.

    You can also better cope with the symptoms of stress by working on your physical health.

    Take time for relaxation. Relaxation techniques such as yoga, meditation, and deep breathing activate the body’s relaxation response, a state of restfulness that is the opposite of the stress response.

    Exercise regularly. Physical activity plays a key role in reducing and preventing the effects of stress. Nothing beats cardio exercise for releasing pent-up stress and tension.

    Eat a healthy diet of fresh food (organic whenever possible). Well-nourished bodies are better prepared to cope with stress. Start your day with a healthy breakfast, reduce or eliminate caffeine and sugar, and stop any use of alcohol and nicotine.

    Get plenty of sleep. Feeling tired can increase stress by causing you to think irrationally.

    And remember to get to the bottom of what is causing your problems, you must journal everyday! I cannot stress how important this has been for my recovery. Journal everything you eat, drink, breathe in, anything that touches your skin, any over the counter meds, any stress, weather conditions, hormonal problems, electrolyte imbalances, low blood sugar, what you did that day, etc. And also journal any sensations, emotions, and symptoms.

    Hang in there my friend! You will come through this much stronger! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers! Love and hugs, Sylvia B

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