I was getting my hair done- my old nemesis- sitting in the hairdresser’s chair. It was there that I almost had a panic attack. Almost, but I didn’t.
I was able to stop it just as I was about to give in, and I wanted to share this experience with you…
It was very busy in there, it seemed like all the chairs were filled with customers and people sitting on the couch and extra people. Lots of noise and loud talking.
It felt like the girl was taking f-o-r-e-v-e-r to put my highlights on.
All these little things started to add up and bother me. The people, the noise, the lighting… And that’s when I noticed an old anxiety pattern- I started to feel like I was trapped sitting there with my cape on and tin foil in my head. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack.
Here were the thoughts. I immediately thought of my purse, do I have an old pill in there to take? I don’t -shit! Wait I don’t have any water with me. What if my throat closes up, I feel so dry. I looked to the bathroom in the back of the salon- can I go in there and use my hands and cup some water? Can I make it in time if I panic?
I noticed tightness in my solar plexus region and my heart started pounding away in my chest. My breathing was getting difficult. There it goes, that stupid adrenaline rush.
Now I feel like I have this rush of energy running through me and I am sitting here with this plastic cape that is too tight around my neck choking me to death. I am huffing and puffing and it feels like steam is coming off me and I want to run but I am trapped, just trapped. Oh God I hate this…
No I thought. NO! No I am not going back there. This is not true. I am WELL. I can handle this.
I can do the 21-7 technique and I will do it if need be. In the meantime, its time to take action, and quickly.
Stay positive. what can I think about besides this nonsense? Oh yeah, gratitude. Let me first look up and connect with God. Lord I know you will help me thorough this. You will help me remember how strong I am, and how much I don’t want to be anxious. I know I can breathe correctly and feel my fear and yet not let it consume me.
The Anxiety Monster: But remember there isn’t any pill in your purse.
Voice of Reason: Its ok I don’t need it. I truly don’t.
I can breathe properly. I don’t have to gasp for air. I can slow my breathing down. I am going to slow it down as if I was alone in my room meditating.
Slows breathing down, way down. Starts to feel back to normal. Yes! Score! Little by little, the anxiety is retreating and my normal feelings are coming back. Thank you Lord! Thank you Lord!
This was an instance where I started to feel old memories and old thought patterns coming back. I’ve been able to do this lately where I can feel the memories but I don’t indulge them. And hence I don’t have a panic attack.
This comes from the practice of being in tune to my feelings every day and when I feel I am going into anxious territory, to not continue those thoughts. It is hard to be honest, and it does take practice, because this anxious way of thinking is all I’ve ever known for decades.
But I have been listening to this program 4- 5 times a week for about 20 minutes at a clip, since last October, and it is really, really helping me.
So delicious to be able to catch myself and stop it before I go over the edge and have a panic attack.
Thank you Lord! I almost had a panic attack- and it went away. No pill necessary. We did it!
I wish you peace,
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