I didn’t sleep well last night. I tossed and turned and had a lot of anxiety.
There are a lot of things going on in my life that I can view as either stumbling blocks or stepping stones:
My marriage is not great and takes a lot of work, my father is sick and has to have a procedure tomorrow to see if the cancer is back, and my daughter is in therapy for anxiety.
Here is my Prayer for Strength Today:
Dear Lord, thank you for the blessing of work today. Thank you for letting me be so busy today that I can work and stay occupied. I will focus my energies on doing the best job I can. I will be choose to be pleasant and happy today. Thank you for letting me work at such a nice place, I really like the people there. I really like my job.
Thank you that my daughter came to me and told me she was having panic attacks in class. Thank you that we went to the pediatrician and found a good therapist. Thank you that she is making progress. Thank you that she explained all this to her teacher. I am so proud of her my heart could just burst. Thank you that the teacher was very nice and kind about the whole thing.
Thank you that I am able to separate what she is going through to what I went through in my youth. I recognize that she is not me and has every good thing going for her. I will love and support her through this as much as she allows.
She is such a good girl, so very brave, and she is bearing her ordeal very well, and with so much insight and maturity. She told me her therapist is “pretty chill.” Thank you that she is doing so well. Thank you so much for that.
Thank you that we are making progress in our marriage. It is slow work and a lot of work but we are making it. Last night at our Chapter 9 meeting we shared our 4th step with the group. This is where we basically tell the story of our partnership- the good the bad and the ugly. We had so many years of dysfunction and fear and anger.
Thank you for our friends who listened to our whole story and have been by our sides with support over these last 5+ years. Thank you that they do not judge us and that we are all making progress.
Thank you that my husband is sober and healthy and that I am also mentally healthy today. The bad memories made it hard to sleep last night. Thank you that it is not at all the way it used to be. Thank you for our little family. Thank you that I am learning how to be in a healthy relationship today.
Thank you that my dad has come so far. Thank you that he is alive and healthy and came through 2 operations. Thank you for the medicine that is helping him today. Thank you for my mother, so strong and supportive and the best thing that ever happened to him. Thank you for all his wonderful doctors and all they are doing for him. He is having a little bump in the road right now, but I just know it will all work out.
Thank you Lord, for by talking to you for just these few minutes this morning, I feel better. I will choose my thoughts carefully today and stay focused and positive.
When I woke up this morning I was so filled with fear. I didn’t think I could handle this day. Thank you for reminding me how strong I am, and that I can choose my reactions to what is happening and stop anxious thinking. Thank you that I am in charge of my life today, that it is no longer ruled by negative thinking and anxiety. Thank you for helping me remember this today.
Thank you Lord for so many blessings in my life. I am truly a lucky woman.
And to you dear readers, thank you for being there. I send a prayer of strength to you today.
I wish you peace,