My Prayer for Strength Today

sunbeamsI didn’t sleep well last night. I tossed and turned and had a lot of anxiety.

There are a lot of things going on in my life that I can view as either stumbling blocks or stepping stones:

My marriage is not great and takes a lot of work, my father is sick and has to have a procedure tomorrow to see if the cancer is back, and my daughter is in therapy for anxiety. 🙁

Here is my Prayer for Strength Today:

Dear Lord, thank you for the blessing of work today. Thank you for letting me be so busy today that I can work and stay occupied. I will focus my energies on doing the best job I can. I will be choose to be pleasant and happy today. Thank you for letting me work at such a nice place, I really like the people there. I really like my job.

Thank you that my daughter came to me and told me she was having panic attacks in class. Thank you that we went to the pediatrician and found a good therapist. Thank you that she is making progress. Thank you that she explained all this to her teacher. I am so proud of her my heart could just burst. Thank you that the teacher was very nice and kind about the whole thing.

Thank you that I am able to separate what she is going through to what I went through in my youth. I recognize that she is not me and has every good thing going for her. I will love and support her through this as much as she allows.

She is such a good girl, so very brave, and she is bearing her ordeal very well, and with so much insight and maturity. She told me her therapist is “pretty chill.” Thank you that she is doing so well. Thank you so much for that.

Thank you that we are making progress in our marriage. It is slow work and a lot of work but we are making it. Last night at our Chapter 9 meeting we shared our 4th step with the group. This is where we basically tell the story of our partnership- the good the bad and the ugly. We had so many years of dysfunction and fear and anger.

Thank you for our friends who listened to our whole story and have been by our sides with support over these last 5+ years. Thank you that they do not judge us and that we are all making progress.

Thank you that my husband is sober and healthy and that I am also mentally healthy today. The bad memories made it hard to sleep last night. Thank you that it is not at all the way it used to be. Thank you for our little family. Thank you that I am learning how to be in a healthy relationship today.

Thank you that my dad has come so far. Thank you that he is alive and healthy and came through 2 operations. Thank you for the medicine that is helping him today. Thank you for my mother, so strong and supportive and the best thing that ever happened to him. Thank you for all his wonderful doctors and all they are doing for him. He is having a little bump in the road right now, but I just know it will all work out.

Thank you Lord, for by talking to you for just these few minutes this morning, I feel better. I will choose my thoughts carefully today and stay focused and positive.

When I woke up this morning I was so filled with fear. I didn’t think I could handle this day. Thank you for reminding me how strong I am, and that I can choose my reactions to what is happening and stop anxious thinking. Thank you that I am in charge of my life today, that it is no longer ruled by negative thinking and anxiety. Thank you for helping me remember this today.

Thank you Lord for so many blessings in my life. I am truly a lucky woman. 🙂

And to you dear readers, thank you for being there. I send a prayer of strength to you today.

I wish you peace,

Jill G.

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8 Responses to My Prayer for Strength Today

  1. Pam Page says:

    I’m so sorry that you are in a rough place. I will pray for you and your family. Remember, you are a strong person and you will get over this hump! May God bless you and bring you comfort.

  2. Ted says:

    I want to let you know I have really enjoyed your blog. I started having extremely high anxiety and panic a little over a year ago, and have been learning a lot about myself and anxiety… including that I have always been a very anxious person, but usually just avoided doing things that increased my anxiety. Unfortunately, you can’t avoid a panic attack, and that is what happened to me a year ago (although at the time what I really thought was I was going crazy and going to die), but I kept going to work and struggle to make it through the day, while not understanding what the hell was happening to me. With encouragement from my wife and family, I have since been getting help from all kinds of sources (books, therapy, medicine, exercise, etc.), and a lot of what you include in your blog really speaks to me, esp. re-connecting with Faith, and using positive affirmations when those unpleasant feelings and ugly physical sensations arise. I know how difficult it is to struggle with sleep (I certainly do, and am not ashamed to take something to help sleep when I really need it), and it is great to see how you use gratitude and thanks when you have a difficult time. Thank you for such thoughtful posts.

    • JillG says:

      Hi Ted,
      I’m sorry you started having anxiety but it sounds like you have a good handle on it, as well as a loving support system, and the right mindset to get better. Keep up the good work, you are well on your way to recovery. And thank you for the kind comment.

  3. Terra says:

    I will say a prayer for you too. Rough patches in life are so tough when anxiety creeps in. I really understand. Your daughter has a great example so she will do well with her struggles. I have a daughter as well & the thought of our children struggling is heart breaking…but look at it this way, they have some tough mommas who will guide & love them every second. Make it a great day & when in doubt…Smile:)

  4. Zoe says:

    You do have a lot to deal with don’t you? You are doing great! I didn’t know that your daughter was having panic attacks. I’m sad for her but also very glad she has you to help her through! You have been truly inspiring in helping me deal with anxiety better – and I only know you in the cyber world. She has the benefit of your presence. I’m sure you will get through this together and stronger than ever. Hugs!

    • JillG says:

      Thank you Zoe for the kind words. Yes, my daughter will definitely get through this. I wrote this post a few weeks ago and she has been seeing a very kind and knowledgeable therapist once a weeks ever since. I also gave her my Panic Away book to read! She is doing much better and I am so proud of her.

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