Haven’t been able to blog recently. So very busy playing catch- up. We were without power after Hurricane Sandy for a week and before that, I had my parents here for an extended stay for my Dad’s surgery and also several doctor appointments in the city for him before and after that.
In the interim my older daughter has been acting up like to the point where I wish I could just slap the shit out of her. She is so mouthy and disrespectful.
I know I was a handful for my parents, but wow, if I only knew then it would come back to bite me. And honestly I don’t think I was as mouthy but maybe I was. In any case, Karma is a bitch.
So then on top of that there has been tension and stress between my husband and me. We haven’t had the time or energy to focus on doing anything for “us”.
And my parents have to come back here to stay next week for my father’s second surgery. And then after that treatment starts for who knows how many weeks.
I have no food in the fridge, the house is a disaster, I have a knot in my neck like a vice. Etc, ad nauseum…
I just feel very edgy, tired, emotional, and I am easily upset lately.
I HAVE to remember to be good to myself. To take extra good care of me while I go through all this.
My anxiety has acted up, but thankfully not to the point where I was incapacitated…
Yesterday when I walked into work, even with listening to an audio recording to keep me calm and grounded, I found myself having a lot of bothersome anxiety symptoms and it really sucked.
It was very uncomfortable, but I kept my anxious racing thoughts at bay the best I could and just continued to work despite how crappy I felt.
After a few hours into work I was fine. Of course I was happy when the anxiety went away and I was calm again.
Remember that This Too Shall Pass.
How about you? How do you handle your anxiety when you are under pressure or going through a really stressful time in your life?
I wish you peace,