I have been going to church alone every week (5 o’clock mass), and sitting in the middle of an aisle in close to the front row. I still get a little weirded out before I go because I think I will panic. But I have not done so, not once. This has been a real true joy and freedom for me. I still have to pinch myself when I’m sitting there.
Last week I missed the 5 o’clock mass for another engagement, so I thought I’d just skip a week;
The next morning I decided to go to the 9:30 Sunday mass– this is the Family Mass — and is usually the most crowded. I was a little scared because the family mass was always scarier for me than the othes. I’d see other moms with their kids that I knew casually and for some reason, this made it easier for me to have panic attacks in the past.
Well, this turned out to be another victory. I went to the family mass and no problem-o. I can’t believe I’m actually doing this and feeling absolutely 100% fine.
I also went to the High School orientation and that too was fine. When I was sitting in the crowded auditorium surrounded by tons of neighbors and acquaintances, I felt so peaceful and happy inside. I was able to fully pay attention and be there for my child. It was wonderful. Here too, I sat in the middle of a jam packed row and was about as far from the exits as you could get.
On Sunday I got a call that my sister needed emergency surgery. Thank God she is fine, but for the purpose of this blog you must know that I drove 700 miles in 2 days and only felt a few twinges of nervousness on the way there. I think that was more because I was genuinely worried for my sister. I was not obsessing about being trapped in the passing lane or worried about aggressive semi drivers. Can I tell you? This was huge for me!
I am so so happy with my progress and that I found this program. It is literally turning my life around. I have had no panic attacks at all and have been able to meet my panic attack triggers head on and not only endure the anxiety situations, but relax and actually enjoy them 🙂
For my readers: find a program to use and put it to work for you. By know you know I highly recommend Panic Away.
Know that the other side of fear and panic attacks is real freedom. I am sitting here knowing this and feeling wonderful and I know you can too. I am also here for you. Together we can heal, so don’t feel that you’re alone. Don’t waste one more minute being trapped by panic attacks. Your life is waiting for you 😉
I wish you peace,
ps. Here is my full review of the program.
photo credit: Eva the Weaver