It really is amazing the things you can do if you have no choice. As a woman with a diagnosed panic disorder for over 20 years (and finally starting to take my life back, thank you!) I am only just starting to learn and tap into using the power of the mind for anxiety.
Last week I was faced with some choices to make in regards to my father’s health. This entailed getting him into and treated at a major cancer center in New York City- which is about an hour from where I live.
My parents are elderly and could not handle driving into or around New York City. You should know that in my 40+ years of being alive, I have never once driven into or out of New York City myself. I always took public transportation or I let my husband drive. For one I dislike highways, and also for many years I suffered from debilitating driving anxiety.
I am convinced that anxiety and panic attacks are bad habits we pick up from the incessant negative chatter that goes on in our minds. It feeds us fear and we don’t even realize it is happening.
I realized when I was setting up the numerous doctor appointments for my father in Manhattan that:
1. I was going to have to drive to each appointment and then back home with 2 nervous passengers. My parents are freaked out and public transportation would be too taxing on them.
2. There was no way on God’s green earth I could afford to be an anxious ball of nerves to do this.
I needed to be at my very best emotionally, to be able to handle all the driving, as well as be on my best game to be able to talk to all the doctors, nurses and the surgeon with a clear head.
I know that with fear and anxiety, I can’t function well or remember and that simply was not an option. My fathers health and life is at stake.
For the past few weeks I have been feeding my mind some wonderful audio CDs I have called the 11 Forgotten Laws. All of the stuff talked about in this course can be applied to self improvement and even dealing with and overcoming severe fear and anxiety.
Getting through this week was very stressful, but we did it, thank God. I had to Do it Afraid again and again, and doggone it, I did good! I was able to use my very best anxiety self help tools to be ok and to function well.
I will never say that I love driving around big cities but I do feel a sense of pride that I faced this fear head on and came out just fine on the other side. And we still have a long road ahead of us – my Dad still has to have surgery and then a follow up appointment…
But with everything going on- I am all at once awestruck, humbled, and forever grateful for how wonderful my body and mind are functioning. I am not damaged, too anxious, or in any way ill- equipped to face the challenges at hand.
And neither are you…Remember, you really are stronger and more powerful than you give yourself credit for!
Have any of you ever had an “awakening” like this and learned how awesome the power of the mind really is? That when push comes to shove – panic attacks be damned– when you have to do something you really can just do it? Isn’t it awesome?
I wish you peace,
I am so thankful that somehow I was reminded to revisit the Law of Attraction– and all the natural Laws of Life lately to help me in my current situation. I plan to review these Laws in upcoming posts so we all can benefit.