Last night my family and I attended an end of the year presentation and celebration for my high school age daughter who is taking advanced science courses. It was very nice and low key. What a bunch of brain power in those young kids- so wonderful!
It was a very happy, nice, family affair. All the kids were proud of their work and boy did they have good reason to be!
While I was there I thought about a secret regret I had a few years back, when my younger Daugherty was in 5th grade.
It was the end of the school year and there was a family night function where everyone sat in the auditorium and watched a slide show of the graduating 5th grade. At the time I was not in a good place with my anxiety.
My daughter was not into going. She didn’t care one way or the other. Going would mean I would have to sit there without my husband since it took place at 6pm and he was still at work. It would have meant sitting there quite possibly with at least 4 of my neighbors who are in a tight clique and feeling left out and uncomfortable.
It would have meant dosing myself up with extra Xanax and trying to sit there and be ok while trying to hold in the anxiety.
So, my secret regret is: we didn’t go.
We should have gone. I felt awful about it.
I will never get that time back with my daughter.
Last night as we were all smiling and feeling so good as a family I felt that pang of regret that I missed out on that pivotal event in my other daughter’s life.
Some would say it’s not a big deal. My daughter didn’t even care.
But I cared. I should have forced myself to go. I have thought of that 5th grade family night numerous times over the past few years. That was one of the last things I avoided because of anxiety.
It’s secret regrets like this in my past that help me reaffirm every day that I will continue to do everything I can to overcome my social anxiety and live a full life. Today I am successfully coping with anxiety and I only wish I had started this sooner.
Do you have any secret regrets because of anxiety?
I wish you peace,
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