Today I want to discuss having anxiety at work. I’m gearing up for tomorrow where I will start working at a new unit in my hospital.
It’s taken me almost 4 months to be comfortable enough at my present position to where I don’t fear having an anxiety attack at work every single time I’m there. Some days are still tough for me (some days are pure hell, like this one), but overall it is better…
Since I have anxiety disorder and work issues to begin with, you might be wondering why the hell would I put myself out there and start working on another unit at my hospital? Well, my job is only part time and I need more hours. The head nurse for the Emergency Department was nice enough to let me cross train over there.
You know, I’m not scared at all of the nursing aspect. I can handle myself in just about any situation, and I’m a quick learner. Its the stupid anxiety that has me in knots.
Such is the life of this recovering anxious person. The anxiety lurks in the background, and I have to do my best not to give it too much head time. Otherwise I’m doomed- I’ll have panic attacks or be so anxious at work I wont be able to think.
For the past week or so since I know I’ll be working in the ER, whenever I walk by that area I find myself peering in spying on the nurses and trying to assess the situation:
- Do they look friendly, or are they going to eat me alive?
- Is there somewhere I can sit or a wall I can lean on in case I feel like I’m going to fall over?
- How close is the staff bathroom from the nursing station?
- Is there enough air in there?
Crazy thoughts like that…And with the Beethoven Da Da Da Duuum!!! playing in the background..Obviously my thinking is distorted.
So I am trying to reign it in today and get myself together. I know I will have anxiety at work tomorrow, it’s my first day there. I can’t kid myself and think I’ll just float right in and be all chill. Today I have to use my Voice of Reason to help me have a healthy perspective about the whole thing.
Dealing with Anxiety at Work Tomorrow
Realize- it’s only 8 hours. By the Grace of God the nurse manager didn’t make me work a 12 hour shift. I can break those eight hours up into 2 hour manageable chunks of time ( more about that here). So I will keep my blinders on from 8am to 10am and only deal with that segment of time. I will take it as it comes during those 2 hours…And then on to 10am to 12 noon, and so on…
I will prepare myself accordingly for work. I will block out some time before I leave the house so I can center myself and listen to my self hypnosis for panic attacks download. I will send myself loving healing energy.
And I will pray. I will pray for myself and I will pray for my patients. I will pray for my coworkers too. I will pray for anyone else who may be feeling anxious that day for whatever reason for healing, wonderful peace and pure calm.
Ok I feel better right now… I’m glad I have a plan.:)
Oh yeah, and I will continue to watch my thoughts and not let them go into the negative thinking trap. I will not play the what-if game in my head.
It’s all good. This makes me feel so much better- getting it all out and figuring out a plan of action beforehand.
I know tomorrow is going to be a challenge for me, anxiety-wise. But I know I am strong and that I can handle it…
I wish you peace,
The 21-7 Technique is from the Panic Away Program- and it really works on panic attacks! Click on the link to learn more.